Tuesday, May 05, 2009

Overwhelmed

I think that's the word I'm looking for.

I'm overwhelmed by this job and the expectations and responsibilities that come with it. It's not that I can't do it, its just that I'm overwhelmed by it.

The workload...the meetings...trying to learn and absorb and adapt and impress...the creepy cookie baking perv who turns every conversation into something sexual...

I am overwhelmed.

I'm overwhelmed by my emotions. I'm up and down, here and there. I laugh and smile, but sadness is underneath it all. I am not where I want to be. Maybe I'm where God needs me to be, but I'm not where I want to be.

And it sucks.

This is the part where I should cheerfully say "I'm grateful for a job!"

But I don't feel like saying it tonight.

(Even though it's true.)

:-(


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7 comments:

  1. Big huge squishy hugs.

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  2. Overwhelmedness stinks. :( One thing at a time....you'll get thru it!

    No hugs - just a tickle. ;)

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  3. i am sorry you're overwhelmed- :^( i will be praying for you and your new job. :^) <><

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  4. One of my favourite songs by Bruce Carroll "I’m still here, I’m still here
    No you have not been abandoned though you can’t see through your tears
    I’m still here…
    Sometimes there are no easy answers, but my promise remains true
    I may not take your trials away but I’ll always see you through."

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  5. i am sorry you're overwhelmed- :^( i will be praying for you and your new job. :^) <><

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