Friday, January 11, 2008

Staying At Home

I'm sure I've said it before but I LOVE being a stay at home mom. I love puttering around my house and taking care of my husband and children. Running errands? No problem. Love it. I am so relaxed and happy and content with my life. I know it's not a forever situation so I'm enjoying every minute of it now.

I have felt so much guilt in the last few years I worked. Rushing the kids to my mom's in the morning so that she could give them breakfast and take them to school each day. *I* wanted to be the person to take them to school every day. Then racing to get to the after school program by 6pm so we could race home and eat dinner and pack everything into the few short hours before their bedtime. No energy to clean or cook, lots of takeout. Wake up the next day and repeat. So much to fit in on the weekends... never enough time. I felt so out of touch with my kids.

Being at home means that I can keep the house up. I can have dinner on the table an appropriate time (no takeout!) and spend time with the kids while they do homework because I'm not overtired from my own day. I can take care of the errands or make appointments when needed and not worry about paid leave time or coordinating the car. It means I am tuned into my husband and children and their needs. I take care of them and they like it. *I* like it.

I have struggled with depression in the past so I know that being on my own too much can lead to another episode so I visit with my mom several times a week, I'm starting to get together with my other SAH friends. I'm even going to join the Wednesday morning coffee hour. I love this life. And I am so grateful to my wonderful husband for arranging this time for me. Once Jordan arrives things will definitely get kicked up a notch or two but I love that I will have one more person to care for. Such blessings.

Tonight we are going out for dinner. To a place with LINEN napkins...LOL. We even have a reservation! Soccer resumes this weekend too so I have to locate soccer socks and shorts and shirts and shin pads... I love being a soccer mom. We might even take the children to see the new Veggie Tales movie as well. So glad it's Friday.