It's been a busy week and I'm feeling very tired and overwhelmed this weekend.
Wednesday afternoon Sam, Julie and I joined my mother, aunt and sister at my nephew's high school graduation. I'm so proud of him for reaching this goal. Unfortunately Ian had to miss it to stay home and watch Jordan and Matthew. No way would they have been able to manage the 2 1/2 hour ceremony. Afterwards I picked up Ian and the Littles and we went to Mom's for cake.
As exciting as the day was, it was also sad. I checked my email during the ceremony and learned that a sweet woman from my bible study passed away earlier that afternoon from complications from her brain surgery to remove a 5cm tumour. I had wanted to go and visit her in the hospital and I never got the chance. I know, I just had a baby...but I should have made time to go and see her.
Thursday evening Mom took everyone out for dinner to celebrate my nephew's graduation. At one point I looked at everyone at the table, laughing and talking together and I felt like crying.
My whole family was together.
I wish I could tell you how much that meant to me after what my family has been through, but I can't. I won't. Some things must be kept private. But I can tell you that God is healing my family's brokenness. There are painful scars that will remain forever, yes, but He is healing us.
Yesterday we were back at my mom's to celebrate Canada Day with a bbq. Or, as Jordan would call it, a "bark-a-chew". Mom put out her kiddie pool and Jordan was all over that. Or I guess I should say, all IN it! All the kids were jumping in it and making us laugh.
More precious time with the people I love the most in this world. Precious, precious time together.
Sam and Julie's last day of school was on Thusday and they are so excited to be home for the summer. I'm excited to have them home too :-)
This morning Matthew and I were up around 5am and watched the sun rise together.
The "L" is still broken on my laptop but Ian is going to fix it for me. Yay Ian!
Tonight we're going to watch Gnomeo and Juliet.
My house is exceptionally hot and the a/c works when it feels like it.
Tomorrow we're going to church. I don't think I've been since Easter! I'm nervous that people will ask to hold Matthew and I don't want them to. He's still so small. When I first took Jordan to church someone grabbed her from me. I need to be stronger this time around and just tell people not yet, he's too small.
Matthew is now three weeks old and I am still not used to having four children. I'm tired every day so my patience is out the window most of the time, and I'm snapping at Ian and the children. I hate that so much. I have friends with a lot of kids and they always seem so calm. I can't believe my own mouth sometimes. I need to get it together.
I need to find time to sew because it calms me. But there's always so much to do. I have four baskets of laundry to fold and never seem to get around to folding them. Maybe tonight will be the night.
Must go, the movie is starting and I'm going to spend time with my peeps!