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On February 27th, 1998 we lost our first child. We were heartbroken.
It amazes me how much my heart still aches for this little one, even after all of these years.
We feel it in our hearts that this baby was a boy. I don't know how we know, we just do.
I wonder what he would have looked like. Smelled like. Laughed like.
I wanted to bake cookies for him. To comfort him when he fell. To tickle him until he collapsed in a heap of giggles. To fold his little shirts. To tie his shoes.
I wanted to hold him.
I wanted to feel his hand in mine.
I wanted to hear him call me Mommy.
I wanted to feel his lips kiss my cheeks.
I want to understand why we couldn't keep him.
If you have experienced the loss of a child, know that my heart hurts for yours and that you are in my prayers today.
(((you)))
ReplyDeleteI'll be sure to be home at 7pm tonight so that I can light a candle. I'm also praying alongside you for those that have lost a child(ren).
Hello, I came by i am mommy's blog, who is fabulous btw.
ReplyDeleteI lost three. I know 2 were boys by the sonograms, the last I felt was a boy as well. I can't begin to tell you how much I felt everything you wrote and the pain it caused and sometimes still causes me. I wanted a bigger family but it was not in God's plans.
He blessed me with two wonderful, wonderful boys, who are now 16 and 9. However, like you I sometimes sit and wonder about my sons, how old they would be right now, who they would have looked like and yes even how I would have fit us all at the dining room table *Sad smile*
What what kept me and still keeps me going is Him, His promises, and His undying love for me and mine.
Thank you for a beautiful post.
Hugs,
@MsLatina
Kate. I've got no words.
ReplyDeleteHugs.
(((YOU)))
ReplyDeleteThis is beautiful, Kate. Thanks for posting. Hugs to you.
ReplyDeleteWish I could hug you! Lighting a candle for my sister's Baby Gracie today. Hard to understand why, but the renunion will be wonderful.
ReplyDeleteHugs Kate.... I'm sure I have no idea how you're feeling, but know that I'm thinking of you today, and on Feb 27th as well...it'll be easy for me to remember since the next day is my birthday.... xoxox
ReplyDeleteI put a beautiful poem on my blog today about pregnancy loss
ReplyDeleteI remember this from last year...and it tugs my heart just as much today, as it did the first time I read it.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry. (((YOU)))
Wish I could hug you! Lighting a candle for my sister's Baby Gracie today. Hard to understand why, but the renunion will be wonderful.
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