I'm frustrated and anxious today. And I'm very tired, which I'm sure is making everything feel so much worse.
I feel the weight of the world on me today and my thoughts are racing out of control. My chest feels tight.
I wish I had some place I could go to just let everything out. To cry and scream and not be afraid of what I looked like or what I sounded like. To just let these angry and ugly thoughts fly out of my mouth and out of my body.
I feel sick in my heart.
I wish my blog was private, because there are people that read it that I wish didn't and I don't want them knowing the pain I am feeling.
I don't want to talk to anyone or play with anyone today. I just want to do what I've been doing. Wiping baseboards and washing windows and vacuuming. Talking to the Lord. Begging Him to show Himself to me. To say something that will calm my heart and mind.
Time is running out and I am scared.