Thursday, October 15, 2009

Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day - October 15th




On February 27th, 1998 we lost our first child. We were heartbroken.

It amazes me how much my heart still aches for this little one, even after all of these years.

We feel it in our hearts that this baby was a boy. I don't know how we know, we just do.

I wonder what he would have looked like. Smelled like. Laughed like.

I wanted to bake cookies for him. To comfort him when he fell. To tickle him until he collapsed in a heap of giggles. To fold his little shirts. To tie his shoes.

I wanted to hold him.

I wanted to feel his hand in mine.

I wanted to hear him call me Mommy.

I wanted to feel his lips kiss my cheeks.

I want to understand why we couldn't keep him.

If you have experienced the loss of a child, know that my heart hurts for yours and that you are in my prayers today.


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7 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry Kate. Thinking of you today as I remember my little boy who I am missing as well.

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  2. Besides our witty sense of humor, looks like we have something else in common..Sorry you lost a baby too Kate!!

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  3. I am sorry for your loss.

    May the Lord bless you in your life.

    God Bless you Sister

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  4. So sorry for your loss. We lost our son in January 2007. I still miss the little boy that I will never know on this side of heaven. Praying for you today!

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  5. I'm so sorry for your loss, Kate. That is one thing that I will always regret, never having my own baby, and wondering if he/she would have looked like his/hers father.
    I will light a candle, just as I do every night!
    Big Hugs!

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  6. I'm so sorry Kate. Thinking of you today as I remember my little boy who I am missing as well.

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  7. I am sorry for your loss.

    May the Lord bless you in your life.

    God Bless you Sister

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