Feelin' Blah

Today has been a rough, rough day. How I wish I could go into what is weighing on my heart but I just can't. Maybe one day I will. But probably not.

No, definitely not.

I have been praying and listening to worship music often today to keep my mind focused on The One who knows the burdens of my heart. He is so good.

He is so good.

I met one of the children's friends today. He lives just a few houses away and owns a cat named - get this - Car Wreck. Seriously. I remember my friend Anne telling me this but I thought surely they were saying "Kareck" or something. Nope. C-a-r W-r-e-c-k. Apparently this poor animal has been hit by a car on two occasions and lived to meow about it. He is a real hunter and has brought home a headless mouse, a headless bird and a headless jackrabbit. Where are the heads is what I want to know.

I know entirely too much about Car Wreck it seems.

Well, Little Boy's grandmother died today, so I thought it would be nice to bake some cookies and have the children take them over to him so that he would know that we were thinking of him. I explained to them that often when someone loses a loved one, people will bring meals over so they know they are loved, and so they don't have to worry about cooking when they are so sad.

They were so excited as they walked over with their cookies. I stood across the street but I could hear their precious voices expressing their condolences about his Nana and offering their cookies and prayers.

Within 20 minutes our doorbell rang and it was Little Boy with a thank you letter he had written. So sweet.

I want the children to learn to mourn with others, to carry portions of their pain. Isn't that what we all should be doing? Shouldn't we all be able to lean on one another?

Says the one who won't open up about what's weighing on her heart. Well, like I said...maybe one day I will. But probably not.

No, definitely not.