Monday, April 18, 2011

Prayer Request

This afternoon I will be having a bio-physical profile done to check on the baby. I'm told it's an ultrasound with a scoring system to check on the baby's health.

I've shared before that I'm on medication to control my blood pressure, and at my last appointment my pressure was it's highest yet.

I'm not a doctor, so forgive my lame explanations of things. Something about high blood pressure -> pre-eclampsia -> placental deterioration = uh oh.

I'm praying that all is well with this precious little guy that we've decided to name Matthew.

Still...

Satan has been whispering to me constantly the last few weeks and he's wearing me down.

Your baby is going to die.

I have dreams of missing limbs, of facial deformities. Of stillbirth.

I'm afraid to look at the ultrasound screen because of what I might - and might not - see.

I have three perfectly healthy children. A fourth seems too much to ask.

I feel horrible even posting these fears. ALL children have beauty and purpose.

Oh how I love him already. Nothing will change that.

Will you pray for our little Matthew today? I'd appreciate it so much.

I'll update you all tonight.

Thank you <3

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9 comments:

  1. Praying for you today, Kate (and Matthew)!

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  2. praying for you kate..everything will be great!

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  3. Praying for both of you today. God Bless you!

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  4. Oh my dear Kate - I am praying hardest for peace for you because I already know that Matthew will be perfect. But to make you feel better, I'll pray that he looks fantastic all nestled in your belly where God wanted him to be. I can't wait to hear how big he is and how beautiful his little face is and how much better you feel now that this milestone is past. Many hugs to you Sweet Mamma!

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  5. Prayers, Prayers, and more prayers going up for you and that sweet babe of yours! I am certain that everything will be just fine. I am just very glad the docs are taking all precautions necessary to ease your mind.. and hey nothing wrong with getting an extra sneak peek of Mr. Matthew :) Love you and will be waiting to hear ((((HUGS)))))

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  6. Will definitely be praying for him and you!

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  7. Praying for you, sweetie! Please update when you have any results!

    XOXOXO

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  8. Praying for you, sweetie! Please update when you have any results!

    XOXOXO

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  9. praying for you kate..everything will be great!

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