Sudden Realization

Today is February 1st. And my daughter is coming NEXT MONTH!

How is it that this pregnancy has flown by so quickly? It feels like last week when I was staring at the positive pregnancy test.

Today I was at the store looking at a wall of soothers and bottles and blankets and other baby paraphernalia and it hit me.... I am starting over. Completely. I feel like a brand new mother-to-be, full of excitement and nervous.

Sam is SO excited that she's coming NEXT MONTH (have to say it like that because .... well....wow). I feel like I have so much to do. The crib isn't up yet and we don't know if we've still got all the screws... I need a car seat... bedding..... stuff stuff stuff.

I can't believe that one of my biggest dreams is about to come true. I can't wait to hold her in my arms.

I'm a little nervous about how I will balance everything - three children, my home, my marraige, and eventually a job. What will the new dynamic be like? How will she fit in with her brother and sister? She will be deeply loved, that's the only thing I'm certain about.

I feel like I've got my cake AND I get to eat it too. God is so good.