Wednesday, September 07, 2011

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I'm frustrated and anxious today. And I'm very tired, which I'm sure is making everything feel so much worse.

I feel the weight of the world on me today and my thoughts are racing out of control. My chest feels tight.

I wish I had some place I could go to just let everything out. To cry and scream and not be afraid of what I looked like or what I sounded like. To just let these angry and ugly thoughts fly out of my mouth and out of my body.

I feel sick in my heart.

I wish my blog was private, because there are people that read it that I wish didn't and I don't want them knowing the pain I am feeling.

I don't want to talk to anyone or play with anyone today. I just want to do what I've been doing. Wiping baseboards and washing windows and vacuuming. Talking to the Lord. Begging Him to show Himself to me. To say something that will calm my heart and mind.

Time is running out and I am scared.



  1. Oh Kate.... I'm having one of those days today too. Maybe it's a Kate thing? sorry...that was a feeble attempt at making you laugh a little!!

    Ugh....I really just want to snuggle my baby, but he had a rough night too and is sleeping so comfy right now I don't want to wake him.

    Hugs your way....if you were closer, I'd say let's make a pot of tea and just chat!!

  2. It sounds like this is going around right now. I thought it was just because I'm off my anxiety medication. I know you have a lot going on right now...please know I'm praying for you! Big Hugs!!

  3. Praying for you, friend!

  4. Talk to me if you need to. Love you Kate - I'm praying for you.

  5. I don't like to hear it when friends are struggling. If you need to chat, you know where I am...text me and I can be on FB/Google (I know how you hate it...letter dropping)/Skype...whatever you want. I'm there.
    Hugs, prayers, and love coming your way...

  6. hugs and prayers!

  7. I don't know you, but I stumbled on your blog from Five Crooked Halos, and I just have to say, I can relate to every word of this post. So from someone out there that you'll never know until we meet in glory - another one of God's children is praying for you... because I am in the same boat a world away. Though you may not have answers, or even a light at the end of the tunnel... may you have that peace that passes understanding, and feel the presence of the Lord so near.